There comes a time when each one of us must confront our deepest self and have the courage to ask “Am I being honest with myself?”.  It oftentimes takes guts and you may not like what you uncover – but, it is critical for becoming a more mature, and frankly, caring individual.

I am going down that road right now – and, I will admit, I am not always as honest with myself as I can be.  This is not to state that I am self-delusional – it just means that there are certain areas of my life where, if held under a microscope would not pass the ‘red-faced’ test. I am uncomfortable with that.

I have no intention of doing a massive soul-bearing here.  Actually, that would be self-serving – and, you don’t to read my problems – but, I would like to give a couple of examples:

1.        I always tell myself that I eat incredibly healthy and that I rarely deviate. And, while that may have a ‘bit’ of truth to it – I am definitely more inconsistent than not.  Looking at this, I feel hypocritical, and not very supportive of others who may be struggling – after all – isn’t it easy for me?  I ask myself the question “If I can show that I struggle, then wouldn’t I be a better support coach?”.  But, my ego demands of me that I maintain this ‘farce-like’ aura of ‘perfection’.  Therefore, I think that my ego needs a time-out and I need to really assess why I am not being honest.

2.       I like to think of myself as open to ideas.  And, in certain things I am – but, on other items – let’s just state that I am incredibly opinionated (my mother would definitely agree).  One can say that I get it from a specific ‘side of the family’ (my mother would agree on this as well). I don’t believe that this is a genetic issue – rather a learned response.  It is one that I need to address.  I am not always open – and, not giving others the chance to air their viewpoints is arrogance on my part.  Not one of us holds the key to Truth.

To that end, I am embarking on a 30 day journey of writing notes to myself.  I am hoping that during that time, I can better understand why we humans have issues with self-honesty; what I would tell my younger self from what I’ve learned from life; what I may want to do differently – many topics to chose from.  But, and I think it is also important, to be a cheerleader for the things we have all done well (and, we have)!

I hope you enjoy the journey.  You may find out more about me than you want – but, maybe it may spur you to answer some of these questions in your life.  So – buckle up!




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